Please tell me I'm just spotty?!
Friday, August 31, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Conversations With Young People
[21:45] Meebo Message: Jac is offline
[21:46] Meebo Message: Jac is online
[21:46] Tony: what happened?
[21:47] Tony: you went offline,,,,,
[21:47] Jac: yeah ichat isnt working so i tried restarting the internet
[21:48] Tony: THAT'S why our connection has been going in and out for the past few days!!! YOU'v been restarting the internet!!!
[21:49] Jac: har har
[21:49] Jac: :\
[21:53] Jac: i meant my internet
[21:55] Tony: you have your own INTERNET?!!?
[21:55] Jac: u r very annoying...
[21:55] Tony: Where did you get it?!?
[21:55] Jac: and yes, yes i do
[21:55] Jac: i get it from the magical fountain at the end of my bed
[21:55] Tony: _I_ want an internet!!!!!
[21:46] Meebo Message: Jac is online
[21:46] Tony: what happened?
[21:47] Tony: you went offline,,,,,
[21:47] Jac: yeah ichat isnt working so i tried restarting the internet
[21:48] Tony: THAT'S why our connection has been going in and out for the past few days!!! YOU'v been restarting the internet!!!
[21:49] Jac: har har
[21:49] Jac: :\
[21:53] Jac: i meant my internet
[21:55] Tony: you have your own INTERNET?!!?
[21:55] Jac: u r very annoying...
[21:55] Tony: Where did you get it?!?
[21:55] Jac: and yes, yes i do
[21:55] Jac: i get it from the magical fountain at the end of my bed
[21:55] Tony: _I_ want an internet!!!!!
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Playing with Photoshop
I am about to go to bed.. but I wanted to post a photo I got at the beach today. Ive been playing with Photoshop the last couple of hours.. this photo just makes me cry..
School Photos!
We got Josie's school photos last week. These are the final ones from her preschool. Next year she starts wearing a uniform.
Here is one.. and the rest you can see here..
Here is one.. and the rest you can see here..
Monday, August 20, 2007
Weekend Happenings
We had another jam packed weekend.
On Friday we went over to Mat's place for dinner and a movie, managed to have a lovely dinner and watch some of Planet Earth before I couldn't take it anymore and fell asleep. I did NOT snore!
Saturday was going to be a pretty good day. We were MEANT to go see Harry Potter at iMax. Again. The first time we tried, we all got sick so I had to cancel. This time we got there, saw a couple of ads, and waited for half an hour before they announced that they were having technical difficulties and the session was cancelled!! Can you believe it??
We had gone to Yum Cha before that, so that was nice. The day was not a whole a whole write off!
Josie spent the day with Granny, so after the whole iMax debacle we went to a normal cinema and saw License to Wed with Robin Williams. Good movie, not one of his best.
Sunday was lovely. Raining with gale force winds, but lovely.
We were going to go to the Aquarium with Ines, David & Josh, but the weather was just too scary to brave the city, so we went to Mamacinos instead. We stayed there from about 10am till about 3pm, having breakfast AND lunch! The kids played really well and had a great time together. Josie was not a happy chappy when we had to go.
I will post some photos soon, haven't updated Flickr in a while. Just have to get around to it.
On Friday we went over to Mat's place for dinner and a movie, managed to have a lovely dinner and watch some of Planet Earth before I couldn't take it anymore and fell asleep. I did NOT snore!
Saturday was going to be a pretty good day. We were MEANT to go see Harry Potter at iMax. Again. The first time we tried, we all got sick so I had to cancel. This time we got there, saw a couple of ads, and waited for half an hour before they announced that they were having technical difficulties and the session was cancelled!! Can you believe it??
We had gone to Yum Cha before that, so that was nice. The day was not a whole a whole write off!
Josie spent the day with Granny, so after the whole iMax debacle we went to a normal cinema and saw License to Wed with Robin Williams. Good movie, not one of his best.
Sunday was lovely. Raining with gale force winds, but lovely.
We were going to go to the Aquarium with Ines, David & Josh, but the weather was just too scary to brave the city, so we went to Mamacinos instead. We stayed there from about 10am till about 3pm, having breakfast AND lunch! The kids played really well and had a great time together. Josie was not a happy chappy when we had to go.
I will post some photos soon, haven't updated Flickr in a while. Just have to get around to it.
Friday, August 10, 2007
New Relatives and a Very Busy Friday
On Thursday night we went to dinner at my mums where we met some second cousins from Russia. My mum's mum's sister's grandson and his wife. They were very nice, Grisha & Ira. Ira spoke and understood some english, Grisha not so much. They are planning on moving here in the next 12 months on Student Visas.
Today (Friday) was a very long day.
It started at about 7am when I hurried out of bed and got ready to be at the school by 8am for a talk on drugs, alcohol, smoking and cyber bullying.
It was extremely interesting with great presentations and insights from psychologists, police, researchers and youth support people. It raised some things that I couldnt even begin to imagine existed. Such as parents who let their year 8 kids leave the house on a Friday or Saturday night (any night really) with a bottle of vodka, so that they will only drink from that bottle all night, and not from a strange bottle that could be spiked.
Uhm, hello ?
14 year old kid? Shouldnt be drinking anyway?? What kind of world are we living in??
During the Q&A one girl (there were parents and students in the talk) asked about catching buses home after a party in groups, "because we can't expect our parents to come get us at 1230am"...
Uhm, hello? Why the hell not?!?! What kind of parent lets their kid leave the house on a Friday or Saturday night without having organised exactly how they are getting home, and certainly NOT on public transport!
What the hell??
Anyways, we came away from that talk a lot wiser, and I hope the kids there (from Year 8, 9 & 10) were listening very carefully.
After that I went to work for about 3 hours before having to leave again to pick up Becka and Josie and go to a Pain Study at the Childrens Hospital.
The study was very interesting too.
Since the age of about 2, Josie has had leg pain at night on and off. We always put it down to too much activity during the day.. but then I started thinking maybe it was rheumatism, because almost all the females on my mums side of the family, including myself, my sister and Becka, have always had this muscular rheumatoid type pain, since childhood. We have always said it was rheumatism, but we never actually got it diagnosed. It was usually fixed up by keeping the area warm and taking some Panadol or Neurofen.
Anyways, so we went in and the researcher did a bunch of tests on Josie to show how much she was feeling the touch. They think that the pain is caused by a high nerve sensitivity. She used different tools to touch Josie's legs, arms and tummy, and asked Josie to tell her whether she felt the touch more on one leg or the other etc. It as very interesting.
I spoke to the Dr in charge, and told him about the rheumatism that has always been in my family and he said that it probably was not rheumatism, but was actually Fibromygalia.
The 'Growing Pains' that Josie was experiencing would most likely develop into Fibromygalia as well. So now I am trying to find stuff about it ;-)
So after the study, we went to Anna's place, where Becka was babysitting Jayden for the night, and we stayed and played for a while before dropping Anna off at the station and heading home.
It was a fairly looongish day..
Should be an interesting weekend ;-)
Today (Friday) was a very long day.
It started at about 7am when I hurried out of bed and got ready to be at the school by 8am for a talk on drugs, alcohol, smoking and cyber bullying.
It was extremely interesting with great presentations and insights from psychologists, police, researchers and youth support people. It raised some things that I couldnt even begin to imagine existed. Such as parents who let their year 8 kids leave the house on a Friday or Saturday night (any night really) with a bottle of vodka, so that they will only drink from that bottle all night, and not from a strange bottle that could be spiked.
Uhm, hello ?
14 year old kid? Shouldnt be drinking anyway?? What kind of world are we living in??
During the Q&A one girl (there were parents and students in the talk) asked about catching buses home after a party in groups, "because we can't expect our parents to come get us at 1230am"...
Uhm, hello? Why the hell not?!?! What kind of parent lets their kid leave the house on a Friday or Saturday night without having organised exactly how they are getting home, and certainly NOT on public transport!
What the hell??
Anyways, we came away from that talk a lot wiser, and I hope the kids there (from Year 8, 9 & 10) were listening very carefully.
After that I went to work for about 3 hours before having to leave again to pick up Becka and Josie and go to a Pain Study at the Childrens Hospital.
The study was very interesting too.
Since the age of about 2, Josie has had leg pain at night on and off. We always put it down to too much activity during the day.. but then I started thinking maybe it was rheumatism, because almost all the females on my mums side of the family, including myself, my sister and Becka, have always had this muscular rheumatoid type pain, since childhood. We have always said it was rheumatism, but we never actually got it diagnosed. It was usually fixed up by keeping the area warm and taking some Panadol or Neurofen.
Anyways, so we went in and the researcher did a bunch of tests on Josie to show how much she was feeling the touch. They think that the pain is caused by a high nerve sensitivity. She used different tools to touch Josie's legs, arms and tummy, and asked Josie to tell her whether she felt the touch more on one leg or the other etc. It as very interesting.
I spoke to the Dr in charge, and told him about the rheumatism that has always been in my family and he said that it probably was not rheumatism, but was actually Fibromygalia.
The 'Growing Pains' that Josie was experiencing would most likely develop into Fibromygalia as well. So now I am trying to find stuff about it ;-)
So after the study, we went to Anna's place, where Becka was babysitting Jayden for the night, and we stayed and played for a while before dropping Anna off at the station and heading home.
It was a fairly looongish day..
Should be an interesting weekend ;-)
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Long Weekend and a New Baby!
My best friend Harri gave birth to her first child yesterday. She and her husband Sven named her Ella. What a gorgeous name, and we are so so happy and excited for them.
Still waiting for photos and measurements though! Ahem! Its not like she's... busy.. or anything.. ;-)
Can't wait to see ;-)
This past weekend has been pretty full on.
Of course we had Dance class and swim class. Tony as usual took her to her classes and I went and did the grocery shopping.
But to pack even more in we went to Mamacinos with Roman, Helen and Stacey for brunch (it was great fun and the girls loved playing in the play area) and ontop of that off we went to a birthday party for some girls in Josie's class. That was good fun too as they had a big trampoline set up with the side nets so the kids had a ball in there.
To top it all off on Sunday night we went to Mat's for dinner with Wendy's family. Wendy's family is so lovely and we always have a great time with them. Josie had a great time, as always, at Uncle Mat's place.
During my weekly shopping I came across something that I had only seen once before at the school. Its called Floy and its like playdough but slightly different. Its little white balls in this gluey, slimy mixture, and you mold it like playdough, but when it dries, it feels like polystyrene. Its fabulous! I got a kit of 5 colours for Josie and we had a great time playing with it.
I had an appointment with the dentist today. I havent been since Xmas 2004 so I was long overdue and my teeth aren't the best anyway. It took him an hour to clean only the top left quadrant. I have to make some more appointments to finish off the whole mouth. My health insurance is not going to cover them all. I don't know how we are gonna pull this one off.
This week is fairly hectic at work. We are one down, actually we are two down with one coworker on paternity leave for two weeks (everyone is having babies!!).
Anyways, theres my update. Ive been kinda slack lately but Im hoping more interesting stuff will happen ;-)
Still waiting for photos and measurements though! Ahem! Its not like she's... busy.. or anything.. ;-)
Can't wait to see ;-)
This past weekend has been pretty full on.
Of course we had Dance class and swim class. Tony as usual took her to her classes and I went and did the grocery shopping.
But to pack even more in we went to Mamacinos with Roman, Helen and Stacey for brunch (it was great fun and the girls loved playing in the play area) and ontop of that off we went to a birthday party for some girls in Josie's class. That was good fun too as they had a big trampoline set up with the side nets so the kids had a ball in there.
To top it all off on Sunday night we went to Mat's for dinner with Wendy's family. Wendy's family is so lovely and we always have a great time with them. Josie had a great time, as always, at Uncle Mat's place.
During my weekly shopping I came across something that I had only seen once before at the school. Its called Floy and its like playdough but slightly different. Its little white balls in this gluey, slimy mixture, and you mold it like playdough, but when it dries, it feels like polystyrene. Its fabulous! I got a kit of 5 colours for Josie and we had a great time playing with it.
I had an appointment with the dentist today. I havent been since Xmas 2004 so I was long overdue and my teeth aren't the best anyway. It took him an hour to clean only the top left quadrant. I have to make some more appointments to finish off the whole mouth. My health insurance is not going to cover them all. I don't know how we are gonna pull this one off.
This week is fairly hectic at work. We are one down, actually we are two down with one coworker on paternity leave for two weeks (everyone is having babies!!).
Anyways, theres my update. Ive been kinda slack lately but Im hoping more interesting stuff will happen ;-)
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Four Under FOUR!
Huge congrats to my cousin and his wife.
They have just had their 4th, yes FOURTH daughter.
Thats four (4) girls, under 4 (FOUR) years old.
FOUR.
Under FOUR.
Girls.
My eye is twitching..
Twitching.. but decidedly jealous ;-)
They have just had their 4th, yes FOURTH daughter.
Thats four (4) girls, under 4 (FOUR) years old.
FOUR.
Under FOUR.
Girls.
My eye is twitching..
Twitching.. but decidedly jealous ;-)
Thursday, July 26, 2007
My Child is a Genius
Tony has set up a profile on my iMac for Josie and showed her how to log in.
She now knows to:
Click on my name in the top right hand corner, then select her name in the drop down menu.
Then it comes up with a window asking for a password and she knows how to enter her password (josie).
Then she has her little dock of games and applications at the bottom and she knows how to click on them to load the programs and away she goes.
Four and a half years old.
Genius I tell ya.
She now knows to:
Click on my name in the top right hand corner, then select her name in the drop down menu.
Then it comes up with a window asking for a password and she knows how to enter her password (josie).
Then she has her little dock of games and applications at the bottom and she knows how to click on them to load the programs and away she goes.
Four and a half years old.
Genius I tell ya.
Four and a Half, Going on 40
In the car this morning..
Josie: I can be lots of things. I can be a girl fireman, and a fairy, and a butterfly and a pony..
Mari: Yes honey, you can be anything you want to be..
[A few minutes to ponder]
Josie: Mummy, I just can't help the silly moments..
;-)
Josie: I can be lots of things. I can be a girl fireman, and a fairy, and a butterfly and a pony..
Mari: Yes honey, you can be anything you want to be..
[A few minutes to ponder]
Josie: Mummy, I just can't help the silly moments..
;-)
Thursday, July 19, 2007
On.. In.. Doesn't Matter!
Ok I haven't been posting any conversations with my dad cause my mum told me off for embarrassing him in front of the entire world (cause thats who reads my blog, didn't you know??). So I stopped. But this I couldn't resist.
He had been given a second hand laptop at work and wanted us to have a look at it.
Mari: well bring it tonight and we will have a look over the weekend
George: so don't be late today
Mari: I will be there before you
Mari: and if not you can just leave it
George: ok see you
George: it is on my car
George: so it is mine already
Mari: well take it off your car before you leave because it will fall off when you move the car
George: no it is on the car box
Mari: your car has a box ?
George: yes on the boot
Mari: well you need to take it off the boot because when you move the car the box will slide off the boot.
George: it is inside of box
George: and box is fixed to the car
Mari: on the boot ?
Mari: you fixed a box to the top of your boot?
Mari: how do you open the boot ?
George: it is inside of my boot
Mari: ahhh right
Mari: so IN your car.. not ON your car then ?
George: at least
George: for my it is the same
Mari: its at least in your car?
George: on.....in.....
Mari: and at most under it ?
George: you want competision in russian
Mari: no thanks.. I dont live there
George: i will laught too
George: you was born....
George: and you first languch was russian
George: so you probably just forgot russian
Mari: probably
My mum will probably have strong words for me.. but after three days of taking care of a house full of sick people, it was a good laugh ;-)
He had been given a second hand laptop at work and wanted us to have a look at it.
Mari: well bring it tonight and we will have a look over the weekend
George: so don't be late today
Mari: I will be there before you
Mari: and if not you can just leave it
George: ok see you
George: it is on my car
George: so it is mine already
Mari: well take it off your car before you leave because it will fall off when you move the car
George: no it is on the car box
Mari: your car has a box ?
George: yes on the boot
Mari: well you need to take it off the boot because when you move the car the box will slide off the boot.
George: it is inside of box
George: and box is fixed to the car
Mari: on the boot ?
Mari: you fixed a box to the top of your boot?
Mari: how do you open the boot ?
George: it is inside of my boot
Mari: ahhh right
Mari: so IN your car.. not ON your car then ?
George: at least
George: for my it is the same
Mari: its at least in your car?
George: on.....in.....
Mari: and at most under it ?
George: you want competision in russian
Mari: no thanks.. I dont live there
George: i will laught too
George: you was born....
George: and you first languch was russian
George: so you probably just forgot russian
Mari: probably
My mum will probably have strong words for me.. but after three days of taking care of a house full of sick people, it was a good laugh ;-)
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Harika & Sven's Baby Guessing Game
I have set up a Guessing Pool for Harri & Sven!
Please have a guess!
Please have a guess!
Monday, July 16, 2007
A Sick Household
Bah.. this is fun.. NOT..
Josie has the flu.. Tony has the flu.. Granny has the flu.. everyone has the bloody flu!!!!!
Josie has had temps up to 39.5. Tony hasn't had temps but he has thrown up all over the floor.
Gloria is sick in bed with temps AND throwing up.
I'm fine ;-) I had a flu shot. I'm ALL good.. so far.. lol..
I managed to be at work for a whole hour before having to come home and take care of both sick people.
Tomorrow Josie will be going to Baba's, Tony will be home and I, hopefully, will be going to work.
Josie has the flu.. Tony has the flu.. Granny has the flu.. everyone has the bloody flu!!!!!
Josie has had temps up to 39.5. Tony hasn't had temps but he has thrown up all over the floor.
Gloria is sick in bed with temps AND throwing up.
I'm fine ;-) I had a flu shot. I'm ALL good.. so far.. lol..
I managed to be at work for a whole hour before having to come home and take care of both sick people.
Tomorrow Josie will be going to Baba's, Tony will be home and I, hopefully, will be going to work.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Mini Update
I know I haven't blogged for a while..
Just been very slack is all ;-)
I have updated Flickr with a LOT of new photos.. http://www.flickr.com/photos/josiephotos/.. check them out ;-)
Everything is fine with everyone.. although Josie is kinda sick at the moment with a cold..
Its 1130pm and I need to get to bed now.. enjoy the photos..
Just been very slack is all ;-)
I have updated Flickr with a LOT of new photos.. http://www.flickr.com/photos/josiephotos/.. check them out ;-)
Everything is fine with everyone.. although Josie is kinda sick at the moment with a cold..
Its 1130pm and I need to get to bed now.. enjoy the photos..
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Fall of The Great Thinker
See.. even the intellectual have their moments..
Mat: tried to get some cool photos of the moon two nights ago
Mat: was very full and yellow over the water
Mat: couldn't stop the camera shake .. even on a tripod
Mat: just pressing the button moved the camera
Tony: set the timer
Mat: bought a remote shutter release on Ebay for $6
Mat: ok you know what .. you go to hell
Mat: you go to hell and you die
Tony: ROFL
Mat: tried to get some cool photos of the moon two nights ago
Mat: was very full and yellow over the water
Mat: couldn't stop the camera shake .. even on a tripod
Mat: just pressing the button moved the camera
Tony: set the timer
Mat: bought a remote shutter release on Ebay for $6
Mat: ok you know what .. you go to hell
Mat: you go to hell and you die
Tony: ROFL
And More From Josie..
She was just full of conversation today..
_____________
From Becka..
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From Becka..
We are all watching The Bold and The Beautiful and Josie starts talking:
Josie [in a nagging voice]: Becka... Becka...
Becka: Shhhh Jose we are watching..
Josie runs into the other room and returns a few minutes later.
Josie: Becka you were silly. I thought about it. I went and sat in the naughty spot and I thought about it, you were just being silly, ok?
_____________
Then on the way home.. out of no where..
Josie: Mummy, Bambi was little.. and then he growed big..
Mari: Yes honey, Bambi was a dear..
Josie: But I am already a dear!
and later still in the car..
Josie: Mummy, do I have any bruddas?
Mari: No honey..
Josie: Do I have any stisters?
Mari: No honey.. you have cousins..
Josie: Yeh like Matty.. he's my little baby boy.. he sits on my lap and he's so heavy that I can't even pick him up, he's a big baby but I am bigger.. I am this big [shows me how big she is.. which is about the size of a cat]..
Mari: Yes ok honey..
[A little time passes..]
Josie: What were we talking about??
LOL..
_____________
Then on the way home.. out of no where..
Josie: Mummy, Bambi was little.. and then he growed big..
Mari: Yes honey, Bambi was a dear..
Josie: But I am already a dear!
and later still in the car..
Josie: Mummy, do I have any bruddas?
Mari: No honey..
Josie: Do I have any stisters?
Mari: No honey.. you have cousins..
Josie: Yeh like Matty.. he's my little baby boy.. he sits on my lap and he's so heavy that I can't even pick him up, he's a big baby but I am bigger.. I am this big [shows me how big she is.. which is about the size of a cat]..
Mari: Yes ok honey..
[A little time passes..]
Josie: What were we talking about??
LOL..
Lions and Elephants and Josie.. Oh My!
Josie is at Baba's today with Becka..
They were watching Play School on TV and they were showing elephants..
Becka: Have you ever seen real elephants?
Josie: No because they will eat me!
Becka: No, they live in cages.
Josie: Well i don't want to go to the zoo.
Becka: But they can't eat you because they will be in cages!!
Josie: Yeh but what about the Lions?
Becka: No everyone lives in cages so you just go and watch them.
Josie: Well I just don't like lions.
Becka: Well what about if on a nice day we go to the zoo and see everything except the lions?
Josie: Yeh... But no lions.
[Pondering...]
Josie: I have an idea, what about if we dress up like elephants and go to the zoo like that? I'm going to ask my mum to buy me an elephant suit because I want to be an Elephant!
LOL.. I'm off to the shops..
LOL.. I'm off to the shops..
Monday, July 02, 2007
A New Babysitter
For years now our niece Becka has been bugging us to let her babysit Josie. We have always been reluctant because we were not confident in Josie listening and following the orders of anyone else. We were worried that Becka wouldn't be able handle an out of control and willful Josephine.
Over the last couple of months we have noticed a new maturity in both Josie and in Becka. One shows more promise in listening and following orders, and the other shows more maturity in thought and deed. So we decided to give it a go.
So last night, Tony and I went to see Fantastic Four (which was fabulous!) and left Becka in charge of Josie at home.
All worked out very well. Becka made sure that Josie had dinner (finished all her veges too!) and had her in bed and asleep by 8pm. She did a great job and Tony and I were very impressed. Well done Becka!
Its nice to think we now have another option at babysitting, and this one Josie will enjoy the best.
So the night before last Becka came over in the evening (to wash my dishes cause I am a lazy woman who let her dishes pile up to a state where I couldn't bare to look at them and had to go to rent-a-niece to get them done) and Tony took her home after that. The next morning Josie wakes up, comes straight to me, wakes me up and says:
Josie: Mummy! Why is Becka not asleep on the couch!?
I had to explain to her that that was happening the following morning.
So the next morning Josie joined Becka on the couch.. see below..
Over the last couple of months we have noticed a new maturity in both Josie and in Becka. One shows more promise in listening and following orders, and the other shows more maturity in thought and deed. So we decided to give it a go.
So last night, Tony and I went to see Fantastic Four (which was fabulous!) and left Becka in charge of Josie at home.
All worked out very well. Becka made sure that Josie had dinner (finished all her veges too!) and had her in bed and asleep by 8pm. She did a great job and Tony and I were very impressed. Well done Becka!
Its nice to think we now have another option at babysitting, and this one Josie will enjoy the best.
So the night before last Becka came over in the evening (to wash my dishes cause I am a lazy woman who let her dishes pile up to a state where I couldn't bare to look at them and had to go to rent-a-niece to get them done) and Tony took her home after that. The next morning Josie wakes up, comes straight to me, wakes me up and says:
Josie: Mummy! Why is Becka not asleep on the couch!?
I had to explain to her that that was happening the following morning.
So the next morning Josie joined Becka on the couch.. see below..
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Mari & Josie == Everything
I related a set of events that happened today that renewed my appreciation for my wife and child on the message board of a podcast I listen to regularly (The Deadpan podcast).
Not going to re-write it here, you guys can deal with second hand content. So without further ado:
"Hey guys,
Not going to re-write it here, you guys can deal with second hand content. So without further ado:
"Hey guys,
Sorry i haven’t contributed to the community in quite a while Jack (and after you gave me such a high by mentioning me in a list of new community members and all) but I have been listening to the podcast (Deadpan is indeed the way) and lurking in the boards every now and then.
Anyway, I wanted to share an experience I had today that involved the deadpan in finale.
I had a dream/nightmare last night (ie it started off ok and then went bad):
My wife and daughter and our 3 cats moved into a new house in a great neighbourhood.
My wife left the house to go to work leaving me and the Spudlette (my daughters nickname which is short for her super hero name “Spudlette The Crazy Chicken”….erm….mine is “The Bowel”…don’t ask. My wifes is “The Glare”…anyhoo!) to start getting the house into some kind of order.
Well after a few bits which aren’t Germain to the nightmare part the time period sort of changed such that even though time had gone forward I no longer had ever had a daughter and my wife had left me. And I was still in the living room of the house (with just the cats now) having to start the unpacking.
Just as I finished the unpacking and was doing something at one of the windows I saw my wife's car pull up and she got out in a wedding dress. Somehow I knew she was coming back from her honeymoon. She and her new husband who was an old friend of mine. They were going to live in the new house. My mother was helping her out of the car (because of the dress being so cumbersome) and into the house.
They all entered the house and while my mother and my wifes new husband and (perhaps) his mother were all sorting stuff out my wife (Mari - ironically…you should have seen what a clown I looked like when I asked her father for his permission to “marry…er…Mari”) came into the lounge room and started to talk to me like nothing was wrong, like we must have had a perfectly amicable split. That wasn't how I felt. I felt destroyed.
I left the room, pushing past her and heading for the kitchen. She followed me and I realised I was going to try to win her back. With her standing in a wedding dress and having just returned from her honeymoon. Tough but I needed her. I couldn’t live without her. And I remembered my baby, like she was a future that had been changed because I had stuffed up and lost my wife.
Just as I was starting to talk to her the husband, my friend, walked into the kitchen and knowing our history he was suspicious and well to cut a short story shorter we started to fight.
A sword fight.
With hard cardboard tubing.
Awesome fight. Very kung fu.
In the middle of the fight I woke up in my bed. I looked over my shoulder and my wife was not there. And my heart just about exploded until I rolled further and bumped up against something. Turning over fully I found it to be my little girl snuggled up in the covers up against me. And my heart did burst. I drew her into my arms and held her against me for a long time. During which I heard sounds of Mari in the other room getting ready for work. Everything was ok.
The dream didn't really linger in my mind very long after I too got up and started (very hurriedly) getting ready to take my daughter to school and then myself to work (we were running very late now) but when I got into work I remembered the dream and started to related it to Mari over IM. By the time I was finished I was feeling very emotional again and sad. The feelings were still very fresh. Just as I finished recounting the tale I hit the end of Deadpan 59 (which I have listened to before but I like the Tee Morris interview enough to keep listening when my playlist clocked over back to the beginning) where you (Jack of course) played the song which I don't know the name of (To Make You Feel My Love seems possible) and I just about lost it completely. Being an emotion junky and a bit of a masochist I don't know if this was the worst time or the best time for that song to kick in but it had a pretty spectacular effect to say the least.
Mari suggested chocolate to cheer me up but I opted instead for the solitude of the bathroom for a little breakdown. I’m ok now though.
Thank you Jack, for playing that song as frequently as you do. Though it may have been painful it enhanced an experience I was having and made the lessons learned all the more powerful.
Deadpan for life.
Myrddin"
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